Merajuk

Interesting that there is no english word for merajuk. Why arr? Omputih tak pandai merajuk ker?

Well...I'm a kuat-merajuk-kinda- person. For as long as I can remember. Masa kecik-kecik, i would merajuk to make sure Bapak would get me the things I want. I recall one occasion we jalan-jalan dalam kereta (Bapak does that alll the time - take us on spins in the car - going nowhere in particular). I wanted candyfloss but Bapak said it was out of our way. So, i merajuk. refused to speak until he made one mega turn towards the shop that sells the candy!!

When I was bigger - working in KL - living on my own - I would merajuk if Bapak makes too much (according to my standard) fuss about my so-called social life. I merajuk by not calling him and not going back to visit. In the end, Bapak wrote to me - apologising - explaining why he said the things he said - how he will not repeat them if it angers me so. I cried buckets reading that letter and went home soon enough!

Unfortunately I married a man who doesn't understand the concept of merajuk. siggghhhh...A man who treats silent treatment with another silent treatment. A man who would make fun of the merajuk wife in front of the children. Apparently his style of memujuk! hampessssss! Lagi stress dibuatnya!

Oh, but i still merajuk. I still rasa jauh hati when people doesn't seem to notice me...doesn't invite me to gatherings and get togethers...doesn't send me nice greetings on FB when they send it to others...when kawan-kawan from Geneva balik Malaysia and for some reason did not even call...when husband dear doesn't remember our anniversary...doesn't remember to give me duit raya...bila anak2 tunjuk sangat they prefer to balik Melaka than Pahang....

hehehe...banyak pulak sebabnya, ek?!

yes, i still merajuk but now, i pujuk diri sendiri...

Again...i spoke too soon about sarah

I'm bored. kerja kat ofis tengah tak banyak. Bosses are behaving themselves (hehe). Found out today that we 're re-connected to FB at the office. OK lah sikit. Tak lah rasa macam katak bawah tempurung!



Baru jer puji...Sarah buat perangai this morning. takut pergi sekolah sebab homework tak siap. shissshhh! the thing is she has to be contoh to adik nowadays. If i simply bagi dia ponteng, then adik will be asking the same soon. Semalam for the first time Sarah stayed back in school for Co-co. Akibatnya, she came home tired and grumpy. I didn't have the heart to harass her. She was fast asleep before 9. Sian lah pulak. So, I asked Kngah to explain to her teacher. Rasanya cikgu OK kut coz she was alright when i picked them up from school. Macam-macam lah depa ni, ek.

Losing Our Children

Nothing is sadder to Mumsie than hearing/reading about deaths of children. Nothing is more heart breaking for children to pre-decease their parents. It is simply not right. Tapi itulah kuasa ALLAH swt. Mati is decided upon you, tak kira usia....

My condolences to the parents who lost their children in the recent dragon boat tragedy. Sedih baca that most are harapan keluarga. Very much loved by family and friends. Especially kisah the only child who was conceived only after the parents have been married for 12 years!

Hari ni pulak ada a 3-year old chubby little girl died lepas kena hempap ngan TV!

Ohhh...i don't know...how paranoid should we get? as it is, I've hardly ever allowed my girls to go off on their own...school outings/camps/trips have been minimally allowed. Itupun only after I've ascertained there'll be NO activities relating to water...i know the accompanying teacher(s) -whom i will be calling and sms-ing at an annoying rate !

I know...orang selalu kata anak-anak ni pinjaman. Amanah dari Allah swt. For us to nurture but not for us to own. But to me...my girls ARE my own. I always imagine that i will die if any of this were to happen to me!

Its been 19 days...

into 2010...so?

So...nothinglah! haha...routine macam biasa..hantar anak-anak gi sekolah...pegi keje...balik..makan...tidur...sembahyang in between, but of course! :-)

Updates on school going small people -

KakLong is in secondary school already! She pakai tudung - it makes her look 17! She seems to enjoy herself. Macam-macam cerita about her new teachers and new subjects. Nampak macam banyak homework coz she's always writing...haha!

KakNgah...am not quite sure how she's doing. I know she damn frust tak dapat jadi Head Prefect or Assistant Head. She voiced her disappointment in her FB status - her teacher saw it and apparently she got ticked off. hmm..i'm not acting on that although i rasa the teacher should take it easy lah kan. KakNgah was merely expressing her feelings. Apa salahnya, kan?! But then...sapa suruh KakNgah berFB ngan cikgu-cikgu dia, kan?!

Sarah - has been made Pengawas Pusat Sumber!! wooohooo! she looks damn cool in the uniform! so the responsible looking! My Sarah is slowly but surely growing up to be a young lady!

Soraya - where do I begin? Generally she's enjoying school. I think. We discovered a week after school opens that she can't write properly! her handwriting is soooooo buruk! Rupanya selama ni in all her cleverness to write and communicate with people was via the computer's keyboard!! We never imagined that she couldn't write! haha! and last nite to this morning she nangis tak nak gi sekolah. I asked why. She said coz "Cikgu Jabarali marah adik..*sob*sob*coz adik conteng meja....*sob*" So, i told her to calm down and that its a small matter but she sobbed even more coz "conteng tu banyak!!!" haiyyyaaaaaaa...apparently the crying continued in school sampaikan alllll her friends kena tolong dia bersih kan meja dia. But she later proudly told me: "Adik dah explain kat Cikgu Jabarali that most of the conteng was already there before i sat at the table!"


Habis satu episode....

Making bread

A couple of months back Mumsie beli breadmaker yang macam dalam gambar nih! It is sooooo cool! I first got the idea when i found this blog - http://www.tiffinbiru.blogspot.com/ - a blog owned by this person who calls himself Mat Gebu. He has a lot of yummy recipes, including various recipes to make bread which he makes easy by suggesting the use of breadmaker to deal with the dough.

It is indeed! you just dump all the ingredients in the breadmaker and an hour and a half later...voila! bread dough is alllll ready for you to shape into shapes you want! not much effort nor khudrat needed! hehe.

Cuma, bread takes a long time to make. after the 1.5 hours in the breadmaker, you'll spend about 10-15 minutes to shape them..then you have to let them be for another 1 hour to allow the dough to rise...lepas tu baru boleh bakar for about 20 minutes. So all in all lebih 3 jam!

Anyways, i've made a few batches of this roti naik - apparently its johor's version of plain roti manis. Sometimes i tabur gula and sometimes i tabur shredded cheese on top of them buns before i bake them. THe children loves them either way!

and i've made sausage rolls too!

On the last day

2009 dah sampai ke penghujungnya....tapi tak der rasa apa-apa pun. Rasa dah tua ajer. I've said that before, haven't I?

Anyhoo...rajin pulak meng-hap-det dua tiga hari ni. Just nak corat coret about today thus far -

FB kena block today kat office ni. I wonder if its just for today or is it blocked permanently. Boring arrrr kalau permanent. How to start the morning on working days like dat! I'm so used to logging into FB first thing to find out how people and friends are...how they are feeling...what they have been doing the last 24 hours prior....what they plan to do...then barulah aman nak start buat keje! hehe! FOr the record, i don't play the games on FB tau. Not Farmville, not Cafe WOrld, not MAfia World either! Bangga! Memang I use FB purely to kepochi about other people's lives and to brag about my bakings! :-)


Adik pergi "orientation" kat sekolah. Dah nak masuk Darjah 1 dah baby Mumsie! Sigghhhh...She was excited so she was up and ready by 7.30 am. Orientation tu start at 8.30. Abah kata she fell asleep masa taklimat! hahaha!


Was reading Utusan Online. There's a report that Zizie Ezzete and her 50-something politician husband has gone to Europe for their honeymoon and will be back next week. Haiyya...itupun masuk suratkhabar? Ada orang kesah ker? Reporters dah tak der citer sangat ker?

Semalam berita pasal Sultan Kelantan's second wife's revelations. Was thinking: Wow! I baca dalam cari.com, the first wife very the garang and very in control within the Istana. Pun boleh terlepas laki kawin lain?! Not good for womankind!

Oklah. I should go and earn my living. DO real work. dah seminggu makan gaji buta!

Blog vs. Blog

Was reading the blog of a famous designer. I like it. Ada laa unsur-unsur berlagak but he seems to have a nice life...filled with designer handbags!! hehe...

Apparently he has received some nasty comments from a particular reader. A reader who did not appreciate the way he conducts himself in the TV programme he hosted. So the reader kutuk dia and dia kutuk the reader back! Then semalam I discovered that the reader has set up her/his own blog! It seems to me that blog was specifically set up to kutuk this designer!! waahhh! kacau! Ini macam punya orang pun ada! I bukanlah nak defend the designer...tapi to me, kalau dah you tak suka orang tu, janganlah baca blog dia, ye dak!?

Which reminds me of a "situation" i put myself in some time ago. I wrote in this blog about not appreciating this particular woman's blog coz she wrote as if she's perpetually having the bestest life and times! let me tell you now...i didn't know this woman personally. And i didn't think she knows me either. I found her blog through a friend's blog. I was a silent reader. Never did i post any comment on any of her entries. Yes, initially i put her on the reading list of my blog but that was done without her permission so i assumed that since she doesn't know me, she wouldn't know that. When i wrote that i was deleting her blog from my reading list, i NEVER mentioned the name...neither her name nor her blog's name. If you don't know me, then it could have been ANYONE as far as you're concerned, right?! This is what i wrote:

"But not all blogs are enjoyable to read. Some concentrates too much on our oh-so-happening political on-goings...one blogger wrote only about the good stuff in her life. She's too ceria to the point of annoyance!! I cannot tahan so i've deleted her from my reading list! Life can't be that good alllllll the time, okeyyyyy..."

BUT...apparently she does know. She was allllll upset about what i wrote. After that posting i never went back to her blog but somehow, someone told me that the lady rant and rave in her blog trying to justify her writings and how upset she was with me!!

And I was like....whadddahelllllll????? HOW did she know i was writing about her??? I never told anyone. HOWWWW did she know?? Sampai hari ni i pelik.

hey!

well...well...well! long time no blog, eh. For many reasons. Malas. Malu (malu?? yes, malu bila baca blog orang lain yang sangat articulate and leading interesting life and very tidak takut untuk menyuarakan pendapat dengan menggunakan bahasa bahasa kesat tetapi menghiburkan!). No time. No idea. Too entertained by Facebook.

hari ni terpanggil pulak untuk menulis. About what?

1. anak-anak - my favourite topic. My girls are ok. Excited about school reopening soon. Adik dah nak masuk Darjah 1. Which means all of my children dah sekolah. I feel old. You think I should another one?

2. the new year - what about the new year? will it bring good things? I sure hope so. Seperti tahun-tahun lepas, I'm not bothered about resolutions. Never have and Insya ALLAH never will. Tapi i nak lebihkan usaha to become a good Muslim. Have not been a good one thus far. siggghhhhhh...

3. the year 2009 - for me, it has been an OK year. Picked up a hobby - photography - when I bought a DSLR. KakLong went through her first of many major exam - UPSR. She survived with a 4A and a B for Science. OKlah but i had secretly thought she could score straight As but somehow I redha because i rasa dia tak rajin study. Things at the office is improving. Bosses are still the bosses so there are still shitty days but I'm learning to cope better. Maybe because we have moved into a new building and I now have my own room where I can just not care.

4. cooking and baking - yeap, i've gone into some kind of baking frenzy. Bought me-self a breadmaker. So, have started baking breads as well. Syok coz my children enjoys my cookings and bakings. Then again, they enjoy most food anyway - home cooked or otherwise! :-)

5. health - OK but not perfect. Am seriously getting old!